Sitting here at the park in my wheelchair having so many emotions right now on the verge of tears.

Just had to put my sunglasses on cuz the tears have started. 

Watching the parents here interacting with their kids is killing me. I so want to push my little girl in the swing or chase her around the park like I use to playing tag. Just sitting here so mad wanting to yell at these two mothers who have kids here playing too.

The kids asked if the mothers could push them on the swing and they said no go play.

Shit… how I wish I could go do it.

It makes me mad to see how people take the opportunity to use their legs and don’t.

I wish I could have mine back one more time.

I would be walking right up to my kid and pushing that swing.

I do have my new riding scooter that I can take with me to the places.

It does make it easier to get closer to my kid…and push them on the swing.

Sometimes I can do that with my scooter.

But when I had taken my scooter with me at the park to enjoy it with my kids…

Guess what?

I left the damn keys at home.

So, ultimately I became stuck in my regular wheelchair.

The result is that I have to take a deep breath, sit back, and just enjoy watching the kids play cuz my chair is not mobile in woodchips,